Damn it all

Its about 12.36 am in the morning, and ... I have no idea what Im doing with my life. Can't stop thinking bout stuff. Stuff that I shouldnt even be thinking about. Im tired, spent my time playing LoL and neglecting my studies, now, more than 48 hours past deadline, my PBL is yet to be done. Looking around at my messy room, I realise that I haven even brush my teeth, sigh, after PBL it is. Time and again, I screw things up coz i have no idea how to act in a certain situation, time and again, I feel awkward. Maybe its coz Im retarded. Wish I knew whats going on with my life, but no one has really gotten it figured out isnt it. Thats the thing about life, 1 moment you think you know whats going on, BAM, something happens that throws it all out the wazoo. My heart yearns, and my mind tries and tries, but I just cant stop thinking. I need to let it go, or I'll lose my mind. I need to come to terms with my actions, I am a medical student, and i bloody hell need to start behaving like one. Loneliness envelops my soul, a strong dragging overpowering weariness burdens my heart everyday. When oh when can I let it go. To tell the truth, since coming to medical school I've found myself attracted to many girls, names of which I shall not mention here. Its hard for me to interact with them. Damn this sex-obsessed male mind of mine. I seriously don't know what to do. I maybe extremely retro in my thinking, but I feel nothing. I think nothing. Truly, I am losing my mind.
Peace out, Jason

yep, thats how i feel
PS Learning taekwondo recently too...
apparently its good for kicking giant overgrown teddy bears in the n*ts